Well, that title is what I keep telling myself atleast. I had my high risk baby dr. appt. this morning and hoped for the best. I have planned all week on racing the Columbia tri, and haven’t let myself really “believe” there would be an alternative. 3 weeks ago when I was told it might be a possibility that I’d be side lined I figured out very quickly that living in the now was the best I could do and I couldn’t dwell on or question the future. What good would that do? Yeah, I’m human and thought it about it but didn’t “believe” it would be the case. Unfortunately, I was told otherwise this morning. The baby’s growth isn’t quite where they’d like it to be. Nothing too alarming but more something to keep a close eye on and monitor. As a precaution, we have all decided it’s better for me to stop exercising all together for the next 2 weeks. Don’t misunderstand, I’m not doing ANYTHING wrong by exercising or continuing to do tri’s and have Heath as my back up proofJ. The main reason the exercise is a no go is to make sure that I’m not making a bad situation worse. I’m eating plenty and taking all the right vitamins he’s just not getting quite the nutrients he needs at this time. The dr. did say that he could be right where he needs to be when I come back, but better to be cautious.
So, what did I do when he told me I couldn’t exercise . . . . I laughed at him. Ok, maybe not just at him but the entire situation. Instructions to take it easy, no elevated H/R, check your blood pressure, and don’t worry. Can I laugh some more? I think the only one of those I could possibly accomplish is check my blood pressure. These days I find myself being irritable, stressed, and impatient and that’s just with cutting back on my exercise. No exercise ought to be a blast for Heath.
Back to the title though, I’m a fighter. I don’t quit, I don’t give up, and I definitely don’t stay down. Things could be far worse right now, and that is giving me lots of peace of mind. I’ve been injured before and had to do nothing, I can do it again. I can also still continue to support the community that has become like a 2nd family to me. Just because I’m not racing doesn’t mean I’m going to rollover and not do anything. I may not be racing tomorrow, but I will be out there volunteering. I have a picture at home that is so fitting, it say’s “not everyone can be a princess, someone has to sit on the side lines and cheer”. It’s my turn to cheer, and I will appreciate the day I get to race even more.
