Ok, so some of you who are friends with me on facebook may have already read about this, if so you are more than welcome to tune out. Yesterday right as I was leaving work another employee informed me that the customer they had just waited on made a comment. He said, “Nicole sure is getting fat”. Now, part of me was kind of like, see maybe now people will understand when I tell them I’ve gained some weight (12.6 pounds to be exact) and the other part of me was mortified, humiliated, and disgusted all at once. Yes, I know, and he now does too, that I’m pregnant. It doesn’t help, and I’m dead serious. There isn’t one part of me that is happy about gaining weight. You can give me all these good reasons and fine, I realize those, but I’m still a female and a female athlete at that. Then to hear someone make the comment that I’m getting fat only adds fuel to the fire. Whoever these women are out there that say they love their body pregnant are lying. Not only does your size change but so does your skin. I feel like I’m a teenager again, my skins breaking out and my hair doesn’t want to function at all. I will spare you the other ugly details that take place in fear you may never come back to my website.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy I’m going to be a parent. I can’t wait for that aspect of it. I dream about it at night and envision it throughout my days. The rest of this has not been very easy for me though. I’m still waiting for the pregnant glow, or wait, is that the sweat I endure everyday at work b/c the thermostats at 76? Is that the nice glow I’ve been waiting for? Has it been with me since day one and I just wasn’t aware that someone was fooling me into thinking there’s a great stage of pregnancy?
Moral of the story, I think women are so happy to be done w/pregnancy that they have mentally blocked everything else out. So, if I ever forget it and decide to have another kid, please direct me back to this particular entry before I make it official. On that note, I will say I have made 3 days in a row of workouts thanks to the new approach. Hopefully that will help with some of this obvious pent up aggression.
