Okay, so finally starting to realize I have an IM (ironman) next weekend. I don’t know if it was Susan and her broadcasting our numbers are out there, or if it was just b/c we’re starting to get closer to it. I am excited, nervous, anxious, and ready. I don’t have to be where I want to be physically in order to enjoy this race, I just have to be flexible enough to embrace those physical challenges race day with a strong enough mind to know that I can endure anything.
Believe it or not, my husband is the one who brought me back to reality the other day. I was upset that my injury hasn’t gotten to a more manageable point and frustrated with everything. He just said point blank, “you are going to hurt race day. You are not fixed, what you are doing is putting a bandaid over it so it doesn’t get worse for race day.” For some reason him putting things in perspective and taking away the “unknown” factor I have been dealing with made accepting my injury and what will come race day a little easier. I am the type person that I would have hoped beyond hope until race day that I would feel better and then come race day have pain and be devastated. If I go into it knowing that its going to be bad and just accept it, I can focus and deal with everything much better.
This isn’t my first IM, it will hopefully be my 4th, and I want to give it all I can. Last year I ENJOYED myself, not to say I didn’t push, but when I had pain that was unbearable I just went with the flow and took in the race and had fun. I know I can push, and I know I can push when in pain and I plan on doing that this year. Last year hurt a hurt I had never felt so I am going to be thankful I am not as injured as I was then. I want to make this race worthwhile, I want to take the training I have done and put it to use. I didn’t put in all this time and commitment to crawl under a rock and give up. I hope everyone else out there racing that day brings the fire and drive that I will bring. No more negative talk, it’s time to put our game faces on and KNOW that we have what it takes without a question. So for the everyone out there . . . Hammer On!
Kat, you didn’t text me so in case you forgot . . . 10 days
